exhausting now
this section can be just notes taken..
a call for a wake up call.
being reminded of your sit bones in an unrelated/ unexpected point and playing with your spine.
seeing yourself like a friend and yet looking at yourself from your center.
An errant detective, on the crime scene for the first time.
observation, a self-reflection, a poke, a nudge.
A series of questions asked, to ask even more questions
The practice of just asking questions and not moving towards an answer
Always moving towards , and yet never knowing where, and how to not desire to know the closest future; where am I going, what am I doing this for, how long do I have to wait, how much do I have to feel, how far should I, why should I, when and where will I…
Relationship is a mutual ‘on-board’ness
Relation is involuntary
Errantry is for keeping life-living alive
The words love and transcendence comes from the same root in Turkish (Arabic). That's why I get prettier in love and bloated with heartbreak.
Heartache - the things that can’t be said, Wittgenstein,
Where does random originate? Ontological preoccupations
Relation to unknowability
we create mass to socialize. to invade more space. to comfortably mess with time to foolishly create expectations. to claim space for memory.
Ruins are holy places - they hold the rituals of scale
Wild space sacred space connected space on the side space back space next space ongoing space godforsaken space
Consciousness has no mass, but it has information. I guess information is the lightest thing that travels through universe.
The space for consciousness has a mass though. So when that mass disperses, consciousness disperses with it.
Life (living involved) as ‘Consciousness in transit’
